I get back to the time
when it all started.
23.4
it was the day
I starved myself
waited for you
accompanied you
for your dinner
I do buy some food
but rather than eat it
I choose to have a talk
with you
for two hours.
we were at the field
in the evening
the weather was perfect
I swear
you taught me how
to throw the frisbee disc
again, I swear to God
I got nervous a lot
I hand was shaking every time I tried
to throw the disc to you
like convincing myself to be calm was a failure at the moment
I feel a little closer to you than before
I couldn't find a right word
to describe how the way its feel
but if only I can turn back time
I would definitely choose this day
Unfortunately, a needle from my scarf dropped
can't you imagine how funnier you can be
that you even tried to search for a needle
on a field full of grass?
After that, a talk.
It was nice when you convinced me
that you have no one else
I do remember all your words.
It started to rain
we have to go back
as it was already dusk
while walking
you even
covered me
with the disc
yeah sure it wasn't working
how can a Frisbee disc cover me from rain?
and you ended up giving the disc to me
see how this little action give a deep pain right now
I wish I didn't pay a close attention to these little things
you texted me right after that
and we went to Anjung.
A night that I can't forget.
There's something spark between us. I haven't felt it for quite some time. And the feeling, it keeps building up, it keeps raising right now. I don't know why that I've become clingy to you, that I even asked you to be here. But we'll take it slow, no rush.
Awak,
it's 3 am,
and I'm crying
pouring all, everything, right into words.
I miss you.
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