That day.

I remember that day

we were on the bus

went back to campus

even the shade of our trousers

we talked about

the color was just the same

but you said that yours

a little darker

even the size of our shoes

we compared

ten and six

we kept talking about

how much you love sweater

with thousand of shade that you have

your favorite brand, Uniqlo

we talked about

Paris

saying that you love to be there

with your favorite girl

while I kept pointing out Santorini

I remember that

you pretended to be asleep

I teased you

just smile if you want to

and we both burst into laughter

as it was so cold

the water leaked from the air conditioner

it kept dripping

now that we sit so close

avoided your cloth wet

now that everything feels so calm

we chatted

even more

I remember that you hold my hand

I loosened the grip

pulled my hand away

yet again

you grab it

and don't let go

I don't know why

I feel so safe

yet it feels so wrong

now tell me

how could you say you did none?

now tell me

how could you ask me

to hate you in a simple way?

tell me how?

tell me

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Hold

You take my hand and try to make it mean something so it does It doesn’t mean love but something closer something that could be mistaken something that has been mistaken for love in the wrong lighting the wrong memory. When you first arrived near my hand you held them out to me and gave me hope but you took them away to search for someone else you believed you could hold instead. It still hurts me like the first day you left still got a hole in my chest and the wind blows just so, it sounds like you humming me to sleep whispering “always keep this memory for me” It hasn’t gotten easier but I’m starting to think it might It feels like moving on means losing you in a different way maybe, you deserve to be missed.

Change

I change my mind I saw you walk away with her I can't look at you Because it hurts to We don't talk Because there is nothing left to say Let me just walked away I'm leaving you and the thought of you behind I'm angered because you wasted my time Hurt because I believed that you were mine But I just didn't see the signs You put me into a lot of pains Till I no longer see the light All are doomed Tears all night You don't deserve to be miss You are a mistake You took me for granted You took away my life to save yours You used me You needed me once when you have no one to talk to You needed me only to heal your pain You used me when you were going through a breakup You are a liar You are a great manipulator You only tell lies You are coward You play victim all over the time You are my worst MISTAKE. I change my mind, This is goodbye.

Misadventures.

That day.

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