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memory lane

It gets so quiet in the crowd
nobody wants to see
what is underneath her sleepy eyes 
and her chemically induced smiles
she pushed away the walls
enough for her to catch a breath 
yet the winds just get more aggressive
and she feels her disguise is fading away

She is not going to sit here and wait
she knows he is unsure 
and now, she is tired
of always going back 
and forth

She aware that it has been a month
yet she goes back into the memory lane 
she gets caught up by her insane mind
she suffocates unconsciously 
like drowning deeper more than she ever did 

she opens her closet 
staring at the cloth
which had his perfume stain on
which she took four days 
to decide whether to wash it
or just leave the smell on

she looks out under the bed
a small box
there are some tickets
a water bottle
from the first date

she goes out
to the place
exactly where they dated 
exactly at the same chair
exactly at the same table
they talked for a while
enjoyed things that not ever going to last

she stops staring for a while
she catches a breath
walks away with a heavy heart
saying that one fine day
she will be okay, again.


thank you for the memories. 




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