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How?

my old bad habit,
the act of defiance,
a great way of ruining my own life.


what if the only way not to feel bad is to stop feeling anything at all, forever?


the thought won't get out of my mind
it's crawling
finding its own way out

it isn't the day
that I feel like crying all my heart out
yet it's the day
that i feel like what if i could end this pain?
for real, like for forever

the loneliness
the soreness
the tiredness
my heart aching

the loneliness
in a crowd
the silences
yet the thought is so loud

how could I end this pain?




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