Misadventures.

At first, I just wanted you to be my friend we were best friends But then, I was avid but then, I got greedy and then, I became selfish I got distracted by the exigencies of needing you I wanted you as a whole The day I convinced you I don't wanna rush this I lied to myself deep down I craved for you I yearn I yearn longingly for you yet I forced my mind to believe that I hate you.

I still cry to God  about it about you about what happened  as I couldn’t explain it to anyone else I still pray, endlessly hoping all thoughts  that once crawled inside your mind no longer there yet I know you’re fine the thoughts were only a way  for you to speak up the loneliness inside the thoughts were only words to let the crowd jumped into the ocean and helped you to swim over your deepest fear;  the dejection the seclusion the desolation  a thing for sure you hang onto my limb yours weigh fractured it choking off all joy and as just life began to clear I gasp aloud at the realization you're not here not anymore as you found  another shoulder to lean on and in choked desolation, I watched you leave