A first love.

"If the attraction was real, and he felt what you felt, then he won’t forget about you."

she was once a fat, an unkempt girl. she was only thirteen when she, unfortunately, fell in love for the first time.

despite her lack of 'look', the guy still accepted her and yeah, they have been in love for at least two months.

yet things don't turn out to be perfect, their love grows cold and on a sleepless night, she left him.

but the girl learned her lesson, she was wrong and everything can be settled down if she doesn't being egoistic.

by the chance, with a sense of humbleness, she asked for forgiveness. she knew that she loves him, so much.

but disastrously, he insulted her by saying that she is fat and ugly.

and you know what was the worst part of it, she was no longer believe in herself. she cried herself to sleep each night, tears soaking her pillow. 

and to let the broken heart heal, she accepted guys who definitely will ruin her life for real.
yeah, her life ruined.

people thought she moved on, seeing how she gave the commitment to a relationship years after it happened.

but only God knows how her heart ached.
deep in her heart, the only guy that she ever loves is only him.

for five years, she waited for him. they became strangers for real. she never managed to say hi to him at that time. he was like an electric bubble that can electrocute you if you come near. she was scared.

but guess what, after FIVE YEARS OF WAITING the guy finally found the way back to her. she was on a cloud nine. she grinned from ear to ear, she jumped up and down with excitement and she even cried happily.

the guy praised for her beautifulness. and of course, for the last five years, the girl starved herself, worked out all days and nights to make sure he noticed her.

she flattered by his actions, they don't declare a relationship but days and nights he told her that he loves her with all of his heart.

he drove her home. he took care of her. he made her laugh, again.

and he left her, again.

without any reason.

without any goodbye.

without any sorry.

though it was all in the end, just a dream.
she forgave him. she was a fool in giving heart. but she'll never forget what he did to her. used the fact that she liked him still.

she cried her eyes out and she no longer believes that love exists. she felt like she wasted her pure feelings on a jerk.

she misses him. every day and nights. there is not a day that goes by that she doesn't think about him. hoping that he's happy with his new girl is hard yet she wants him to be happy. she's willing to let him go just to see he is happy. now it feels like life is torturing her, she can't move on. she loves him so much till she forgets how to love herself. she loves him with all of her heart, forever.

take care, my love.

why had she waited for him during those five years?