Misadventures.

Do I need to feel sorry for liking you? Do I need to feel sorry for liking you that much? Do I need to feel sorry for telling you how much i like you? Do I need to feel sorry to myself if you don't feel the same? Do I need to feel that sad if the rejection is real? Do I need to feel that sad if I'm definitely not your choice? Do I need to feel sad, that everytime I fall for a good and nice guy, I will never be accepted? Do I need to feel sorry that I'm fat? Do I need to feel sorry that I'm ugly? Do I need to feel sorry that I'm not good enough for everyone else? Do I need to feel sorry to myself if I'm no longer believe in me? Do I need to feel sorry to myself if I love someone so much till I forget how to love myself? I feel terribly bad for liking a perfect guy when I know I'm just a em, idk. yet im feel comfortable when he's around. he never let me feel insecure about myself, and that is the part when i notice he was just being ...

penat aku disambar rindu lelah aku terima kata palsu ingat aku boleh percaya bait bicara kamu hingga malam itu aku remuk hilang yakin wujud sakit aku bangun harap ada yang pertahankan namun kau tetap disitu tunggu aku berlalu sedangkan bukan aku mulakan semua dulu.

"If the attraction was real, and he felt what you felt, then he won’t forget about you." she was once a fat, an unkempt girl. she was only thirteen when she, unfortunately, fell in love for the first time. despite her lack of 'look', the guy still accepted her and yeah, they have been in love for at least two months. yet things don't turn out to be perfect, their love grows cold and on a sleepless night, she left him. but the girl learned her lesson, she was wrong and everything can be settled down if she doesn't being egoistic. by the chance, with a sense of humbleness, she asked for forgiveness. she knew that she loves him, so much. but disastrously, he insulted her by saying that she is fat and ugly. and you know what was the worst part of it, she was no longer believe in herself. she cried herself to sleep each night, tears soaking her pillow.  and to let the broken heart heal, she accepted guys who definitely will ruin her life for real....

adakah aku sendiri terngiang ngiang kata kerana tomahan dulu dan kini pujian mendadak seolah aku sendiri yang bercakap dari minda dan hati untuk puaskan diri

satu rasa itu yang nyatanya suka bukan kerana dia melutut meluah kata tapi kerana yang satu itu tahu hargai dan buat aku menghargai diri sendiri. bukan kerana luahan pujian semata tapi kerana dia tahu cerita lalu masih dan terus memuja. dan kerana dia lantas aku rasa diterima manusia yang rata ratanya menolak kewujudan. juga kerana dia cetus semangat biar aku bangun dari luka juga kerana dia cetus rasa biar aku terus suka dan memuja dalam hati tanpa berkata. you can't deny that bcs of someone your insecurities suddenly find its way out of your life. thankyou.